Ok so my parents both work and i go to school at night. i was talking to my mom the other day and she says she knows i have been neglectedd by everyone including my boyfriend.
He went away last weekend with his stepfather to go quading
this weekend he went to the Dunes with his step father and i told him i have nothing to do on the weekend and not to text me because when he doesnt text back because of signal i get a little upset
he said he wouldnt but he is and so i told him i loved him to go have fun and i dont feel good so im gonna take a nap
i look at him going away as a kind of maturing process for our relationship but i feel so damn neglected and lonely and no i seriously have no friends to hang out with. thats how pathetic this is.
i asked him if on monday he would come over after his trip and he said he would and we pinky promised it last wednesday( in my book a pinky promise is everything i have never ever broken one that i can remember in my life) and i told him this and then today i told him that he could break the pinky promise and he replied with why =/ and i said because i dont want to make you do anything you dont want to do. Because i have two classes and he only has one and then has to wait for me he gets bored and i get annoying texts about it and i feel guilty….anyways he replied with uhm okay… and i told him to text me later when it was night and he wouldnt be busy .

i just hate feeling this way and i took my natural stress relief drops to calm me down and i feel better now but i dont like being neglected so next sunday on the 9th is our 22nd month together (yes i count becuase he is important to me and he doesnt mind) and ive hinted i want a single flower cuz there expensive and maybe a picnic or something romantic at night were we can look at the stars. ( i love stars) i dont expect anything to happen and i dont want to bother getting my hopes up . ive realized if i do they just get crushed in the end
well i dont want any answers like go talk to someone or see a couselor etc. they dont work ive tried im a hopeless romantic with too many dreams blah bla F***ing blahhhhhhhh
i need a real life answer

btw this hopefully is the last weekend he goes away but idk ..i did tell him if we didnt have our 22nd that i wouldnt talk to him for a long time and i would be really hurt . he took it lightly like he knows he will be there etc..but as the saying goes family before girlfriend/boyfriend
it sucks im bored and starting to want to break things which i do.
help
lol i do have a hobby, i play piano, and i draw, and i go on hikes.

i just want him to be a man and step up to the plate and show me he cares like he did for valentines